The whole Dam family

Every time I put up a blog post, Satu reminds me that this is really the best present that I can give her. It is free and I can do it from home, so to me it doesn't seem like much of a prezzie, but to her it is better than flowers, comic books, desiccants, gran marrrrrar or any of the other odd things that she likes to have as a surprise. It is certainly better to her than most of the stuff that I have delivered here to the house. Every time a box arrives, she still looks at it hopefully and asks "what is it?"You would think that she would know better by now. It's probably shoe laces or hinges in the mail, a source of constant disappointment. Here though, It's a weird little space where I can remind her that I love her. (Why do I need spell check for weird every damn time? You would think, that it would one of my go-to adjectives.)

I love you honey. Don't ever forget it. I love you when you are near me and when you are nowhere to be found. I feel better and more like myself whenever you walk in the room. I love the way you smell, the sound of your voice and the way you scoot around when you are chasing the cat. I love that you can look funny and a little scornful at the same time.

See.

I love our whole damn family so much that I can hardly imagine what I would be like on my own. I certainly wouldn't live in a home like this, or love it as much as I do. The best part about our place is that it is ours. Every daydream that I enjoy has you at the center of it somewhere. There is no hike I want to have without you, no road trip, no fancy food and no art that I can imagine that wouldn't be better experienced with you. When I daydream about building a little space in the basement it is because I want a place like that for us to enjoy. How lucky am I? Most married people want a man cave or a suite of their own. I just want another room to nest in with you and expand our fun little home together. 

I often forget that for you, this little blog is a new space where you can connect with me. It seems kind of fitting that I just want to nest in this house and to feel close and you just want to nest in your mind to feel close. 

I'm sorry I don't do this more. 

There can never be enough ways to say I love you. 

I love you all the ways.