My wife looks like a rockstar

My wife and I have a standing date to do holiday things together. One of my favorite holidays is Halloween which we spend watching moderately dark movies or shows and jumping up to hand out candy to a parade of neighborhood children.

I would rather do this with her than go to any party or watch a parade of black cats in costumes, or whatever weird shit the young people are into these days.

Trick or treating had already started when I got home from work. Neighbors were out grilling and helping little goblins and butterflies cross the street. Sugar buzzed laughter and the click clatter of running children was background to everything in our usually quiet neighborhood.

When I got home, my wife met me at the door looking like a rockstar, and by that, I mean looking like she always does... a total bad ass. She is has such a confident walk and demeanor that there is always a little oh my god element when I first see her. She was wearing orange pants and a black tee shirt which only enhanced the whole rockstar thing. She always seems a little flirty and mysterious. Apart from being too nice and too polite to actually be a rock star, there is virtually no difference between Satu and anyone you might see on tour. I imagine young girls everywhere following her around like groupies. I am not sure why they don't. but probably because she has never made eye contact with them. When Satu looks you in the eyes, your heart forgets what its job is. It just stands there all loose and warm in your chest for a second before picking up the beat and marching on.

I have never gotten used to this. In fact, I have recently realized that Satu and I don't make a lot of eye contact for this reason. Yes, we look at each other, but she is careful to keep her eyes moving about slowly as we talk. If they linger or if I catch her gaze full on when I am not ready, I still have the sensation of falling for a moment.

I hope that I always feel that way when she looks at me. I think that only part of it is the way that I feel. I think that the other half of what is so electric is how I know that she feels when she looks at me.

My rockstar may be unknown to the world at large, but she could take the stage by storm any moment that she chooses.