I don't know how to spell lingerie

I had to google it, and I still got it wrong twice in the title, but like porn, I know it when I see it.

This is go to lesbian sleepwear. It's not the kind of thing you usually see in glossy magazines, it's definitely better (I also don't know how to spell definitely, thank you spell check.) The thing is, I feel as though I am the luckiest person in the world. My wife is beautiful and she's real. She's funny and sexy at the same time. She rocks a tank top, so the only thing that would actually make this outfit more sexy to me is if she was also in a tank top.

My wife worries all the time about everything, but often lately, she worries about her body. I totally don't get this at all because she has a healthy, beautiful, strong, perfect body. She is a force of nature in that thing. She can summon the power of the world in her strong hands and use them so carefully to show me the kindest, most real love in the world.

I especially love her beautiful square feet. They seem impossible to me since I've walked on my giant misshapen flippers my whole life, yet there they are planted firmly wherever she stands or sometimes both aloft at the same time chasing after the cat.

Then there are her legs, which grow the finest, softest hair and usually have some mysterious bruises on them. You can not imagine how fast she walks on those things. She walks with purpose because she has fire inside her body.

Her arms are small, but deceptively long and strong. I love to be wrapped tightly against her chest and smell her smells. It's instantly calming to me. I can't wait for her to come home and just hold me against her chest or her cheek.

I also like to watch her show love to our animals (even though it makes me jealous sometimes.) When I pet Gimmie, I want him to know that I love him, but mostly it's because I get to feel love and to be connected in a way that soothes me. When I watch Satu pet him or the cat, I can tell she is being careful to pet them the way they want to be loved. She wants them to feel loved and will pet them when it is boring for her or when she thinks they need to feel more connected. I know she shares her body with me that way too. I don't think she feels as comforted by a hug as I do, yet she still makes time to put herself in there for me. That perfect, beautiful body is not really the point at all. It's amazing, but mostly because of the way she drives it.

I think of all people as trapped inside a body that is mainly just a shell, yet you are never in the moment without also being in your body. I have been in a love hate relationship with mine my whole life feeling shame about what people might think of the body that I drive. As I get older and softer, I try to remember that I am not this shell. Yes, I'll try to make the most of it, I want it to be clean, healthy and as attractive as it can be for my wife, but I'm more. Everyone is more than the body. We are all more than we seem.

To me, Satu is her body, but she is so much more. She's all of her. I wish she loved everything about her as much as I do. As we get older together, we will weather, but her hands are the only ones I want to hold. Her square feet are the only ones I want to rub (but not right now okay?) Her shoulder is the only place I want to rest my head when I need comfort, and her voice is the only one in the world that makes my heart jump like that. What a perfect thing.