For all time

I don't know how Satu knows things about me that I never even told her like a mantle clock is the coolest present I could get for our anniversary. As well as Satu knows me, I can't think of any reason that she would know that I wanted that kind of a clock. I don't recall ever remarking about how they make an old home like ours seem cozy or about how my grand dad had one that chimed and I always thought it was like a surprise song whenever it would chime. For me, there is only one right shape for a mantle clock, roughly the shape of the snake eating the elephant.

There are other shapes of course, but not for me, and some how Satu knew that. 

I imagine all the other things that I never mentioned that Satu knows. Given the following list of things I have never said, she would probably just say, "of course." there are no surprises here. 

If I said that my favorite book as a child was " The Little Engine that Could." she would just say,"Of course."

When grown ups asked me what I wanted to be, I'd always say a marine biologist because of Jaquees Custoe and my dad.

I was fascinated by barnicles

I thought martial arts was a viable career field.

I was so stressed out about my responsibility for keeping my sister safe that my compulsive behavior started there as a coping mechanism to keep my brain from worrying about everything that could happen to her.

I wanted pet lightning bugs sooooooo bad. 

The thing I was most ashamed of was accidentally making one of my classmates feel bad and being too embarrassed to apologize. 

Of course, I don't have that same kind of intuition about her , but here are some things I think I know. 

Satu's favorite book as a child is written in German and too sad to talk about. Ever again.

When Satu was asked what she wanted to be when she grew up, she always just said "Myself/ but a grown up me"

She was fascinated by everything. 

She thought "bad ass" was a viable career field, but if that didn't work, she could always fall back on  " brilliant."

She was so stressed out about her parents, that she just went on by herself and relied on no-one. 

She wanted pet everything, armadillos, raccoons, bats, beavers, hedgehogs, etc.

The thing she was most ashamed of was other people.

I never could have imagined that I would get to marry my best friend, who knows things about me that I have never even mentioned. She keeps me safe and protects me even when I don;t see that the world can be dangerous. She smooths down my worry and protects me from the world that could never see me the way that she does. And the clock now represents all of the happy moments we will spend together in the years to come.