Turning the page

It is always hard to turn the page on a part of your life that you thought was meaningful Even if the story isn't always happy, it's your story at the time and it feels wrong to just start writing something else when you know the characters and settings so well.

Satu is starting a new job on Monday where I work. It is a huge unknown. Will she like it? Will she be happy? Of course she can do it, she works harder than anyone I know and she will always give her best effort (thus the nickname.)

For selfish reasons I want to work on the same schedule with her. I think it will help me feel like we are more like a pair than a relay team, but I also want a foothold where I can talk about my work with her. Right now, the characters have to be built and backgrounds have to be given if I want to talk about that part of my life. It's a weird place and sometimes the little social happenings are just seeds that never find ground.

More than anything, I want Satu to feel proud of herself. From my perspective, there are two things wrong with the job that she is leaving. 1. people shit on her emotions all the time. 2. She already knows all of the answers, so the challenges may be daily, but there is no figuring out for her to do.
Satu has a brain that likes to solve problems. I think she will be happier in a more complex environment. Anyway, I hope she will.

You never can really know what's after the chapter that you are currently writing, but I do know that with Satu, we are safer, better and stronger than we would be alone.

My life and the choices that I make have meaning that would disappear instantly if Satu were not here. I believe strongly, and I always have, that the only real thing that matters in life is your love for others. Without that passion, why do anything? Even if you do good for strangers, it is out of some love for them. Some sense of sameness.

I think Satu will find meaning in her new, weird job with all of its characters. I think that she will find someone to share a sandwich with and give nicknames to. If there is laughter in a place, even if there is yelling too, there is a spark that makes it worthwhile.

In our home, there is always laughter. Though I care more about what goes on here than anywhere else in the world, you have to have healthy interactions at work or outside of your home in order to bring them back to the nest.

Overall, I hope Satu will find that kind of opportunity as she starts this new story, and I am excited to be more a part of it.