Loyalty

I think that Satu would describe herself as loyal, but I don't think that most people understand exactly how true and how deep and how much a part of her that one trait is. Satu is not grudgingly loyal, doing what she says that she will because she wants your respect, or in any way gives a fuck about being recognized for her loyalty. Satu is loyal because she is a good person, because she thinks of others as much or more than she thinks of herself and lets that compass guide her.
Satu is the type of loyal that doesn't take a day off, even though she has pneumonia, because someone where she works is having a crisis worse than that, and he can't be there. If she is in, she is 100% in. She does not cancel plans, she does not back out of things, even when it occurs to her that she needs to. She will worry about what others would have to go through and then go through twice the hell to save them the trouble.
Satu is loyal because she is good. She probably has the same shitty little voices that all of us do, but what she listens to is the one that tells her how to stand fast in the face of insulting people and put on a brave face for her coworkers, how to go to bat for the underdog and how to put herself between the storm and anyone else who may be in its way.
She has stood by me and protected me in really rocky moment's when I am less than what I should be. She has held my hand and soothed my fears in the middle of the night when she desperately needed sleep and comfort herself.
I know that sometimes Satu worries that I put her on a pedestal, but I don't really think that I do. I see all of the ways that she is human, but I see her resilient and strong in all of the ways that really matter to me. I know that I can always count on her to be real, to try hard and to be there when it counts.
I hope that she also knows those things about me. There is nothing in this world that I would choose over her, and no place I wouldn't go to stand beside her. Though I may not have her strength, I do have her loyalty, and in me, it comes from really knowing and feeling love.