Finally we live together and we have a few precious hours a day together. It has been so long since I have opened my front door and really felt at home. Now I can come home to my own family even if my sweet girl is asleep because I have a very impractical work schedule. Third shift is not easy, but I am still happy to have this fresh new start with Satu in a new town. Today at work I met the new inspector that they hired. He left neuroscience research to work there. That is in addition to a NASA R&D engineer, a biochemist, an accountant and a variety of other folks with colorful backgrounds. I have put all my eggs in this one basket, but at least it is a colorful basket.
I can be happy working almost anywhere as long as it is not boring and overly full of drama, but my biggest hope is that Satu will make a better, more fulfilling life here for herself. As much as I love her and can't wait to come home to her every day, this whole thing will be a failure if she doesn't find some satisfaction in her life.
I think we all look for meaning in life and we all want to leave some kind of mark on the larger world. Satu especially feels a need to reach out, but she keeps reigning her hopes back in so that she can be responsible. She is a genius. The best parts of the world deserve her input and she deserves to feel at home in the world like I feel when I come home to her. I don't think that is as much about being famous or appreciated in the moment as it is about doing what you feel called to do. I hope that she will find something that engages her mind and inspires her. I hope I hope I hope my sleeping beauty will find a happy home here too.
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