Right now my girlfriend is in Lawrence visiting her family and bringing home some delicious Freestate beer for us. I can't believe how lucky I am. Out of all the people Satu could be with, she chose me and continues to choose me every day. When I am difficult and clumsy she doesn't just throw me back to the wild, she's so gentle with my tender feelings.
There is nothing in the world more compelling than her kisses. She is playful, funny and so beautiful that I couldn't have dreamed up someone who captivates me more. After five years, I still daydream about the woman that I get to come home to. I don't know anyone in the world who has it this good.
Thursday, December 26, 2013
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Sleeping beauty
Finally we live together and we have a few precious hours a day together. It has been so long since I have opened my front door and really felt at home. Now I can come home to my own family even if my sweet girl is asleep because I have a very impractical work schedule. Third shift is not easy, but I am still happy to have this fresh new start with Satu in a new town. Today at work I met the new inspector that they hired. He left neuroscience research to work there. That is in addition to a NASA R&D engineer, a biochemist, an accountant and a variety of other folks with colorful backgrounds. I have put all my eggs in this one basket, but at least it is a colorful basket.
I can be happy working almost anywhere as long as it is not boring and overly full of drama, but my biggest hope is that Satu will make a better, more fulfilling life here for herself. As much as I love her and can't wait to come home to her every day, this whole thing will be a failure if she doesn't find some satisfaction in her life.
I think we all look for meaning in life and we all want to leave some kind of mark on the larger world. Satu especially feels a need to reach out, but she keeps reigning her hopes back in so that she can be responsible. She is a genius. The best parts of the world deserve her input and she deserves to feel at home in the world like I feel when I come home to her. I don't think that is as much about being famous or appreciated in the moment as it is about doing what you feel called to do. I hope that she will find something that engages her mind and inspires her. I hope I hope I hope my sleeping beauty will find a happy home here too.
I can be happy working almost anywhere as long as it is not boring and overly full of drama, but my biggest hope is that Satu will make a better, more fulfilling life here for herself. As much as I love her and can't wait to come home to her every day, this whole thing will be a failure if she doesn't find some satisfaction in her life.
I think we all look for meaning in life and we all want to leave some kind of mark on the larger world. Satu especially feels a need to reach out, but she keeps reigning her hopes back in so that she can be responsible. She is a genius. The best parts of the world deserve her input and she deserves to feel at home in the world like I feel when I come home to her. I don't think that is as much about being famous or appreciated in the moment as it is about doing what you feel called to do. I hope that she will find something that engages her mind and inspires her. I hope I hope I hope my sleeping beauty will find a happy home here too.
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