Waiting

I am usually the one who is bad at waiting. If I delay gratification for a moment, it is a triumph, but not Satu, she is patient and steady. She is calm and focused, until she's had it, and then she is a rage ball. The move date has come and gone and Satu is still in Georgia. She is working on the house there, getting it ready to sell, sleeping on a blow up mattress and talking to a stinky cat.
Earlier she sent me this picture.

Whenever she sits down, the cat has to sit next to her, which is the same kind of shit that I always try to get away with, but fail.

I am already in Ohio trying to make the house less chaotic while I start my new job and try not to fail my classes. I feel really good about this town except for one thing. My girlfriend is not here! New experiences are not as much fun if they are not shared. I don't want to try new restaurants without her, I don't want to be lost in the park without her and I don't want to be daydreaming about our home unless she is here to dream with me. Still, I try to keep the excitement about a new place fresh so that she will look forward to joining me here and not chicken out and leave me here alone with all of her stuff. Here is a list of things that I will do when she finally gets here.

1. Take her out someplace neither of us has ever been.
2. Make sure she has warm jammies.
3. Woo her with beer. It worked on me, it should work on her.
4. Fill her bird feeders and take her to see the geese.
5. Squeeze her shoulders and rub her feet.
6. Cook dinner with her in our home.
7. Give her kisses, but not all the kisses that I want to because that is too much, but some kisses.
8. Remind her why she is taking this chance with me.
9. Tell her stories or read to her as she falls asleep.
10. Look for a comic book shop with her.
11. Make sure there is toilet paper on every roll.
12. Dress up the dogs and tell them to be on their best behavior.
13. Bring things and take other things away.
14. Never again fail to be there for her, in the flesh, face to face, when she needs me.

I hate that I can't be there with her while she is dealing with so much stuff on her own. I must say though, for someone who is so shy, she has been taking care of business like a champ. It's impressive how much she has gotten done and how quickly she is wrapping up such a huge, intimidating project. I can't wait to get her back in my arms.