Party in the front

I just got this picture...

Party in the front, and the back. Then a funeral.

Mr. Bubble, Mr. Bubble.

Mr. Bubble got in trouble.

He got a little girlie

a bit too clean.

(I'm a dirty girly) Yes please.

cake

Cake, tic tacs and pocky. I love you.

Waiting

I am usually the one who is bad at waiting. If I delay gratification for a moment, it is a triumph, but not Satu, she is patient and steady. She is calm and focused, until she's had it, and then she is a rage ball. The move date has come and gone and Satu is still in Georgia. She is working on the house there, getting it ready to sell, sleeping on a blow up mattress and talking to a stinky cat.
Earlier she sent me this picture.

Whenever she sits down, the cat has to sit next to her, which is the same kind of shit that I always try to get away with, but fail.

I am already in Ohio trying to make the house less chaotic while I start my new job and try not to fail my classes. I feel really good about this town except for one thing. My girlfriend is not here! New experiences are not as much fun if they are not shared. I don't want to try new restaurants without her, I don't want to be lost in the park without her and I don't want to be daydreaming about our home unless she is here to dream with me. Still, I try to keep the excitement about a new place fresh so that she will look forward to joining me here and not chicken out and leave me here alone with all of her stuff. Here is a list of things that I will do when she finally gets here.

1. Take her out someplace neither of us has ever been.
2. Make sure she has warm jammies.
3. Woo her with beer. It worked on me, it should work on her.
4. Fill her bird feeders and take her to see the geese.
5. Squeeze her shoulders and rub her feet.
6. Cook dinner with her in our home.
7. Give her kisses, but not all the kisses that I want to because that is too much, but some kisses.
8. Remind her why she is taking this chance with me.
9. Tell her stories or read to her as she falls asleep.
10. Look for a comic book shop with her.
11. Make sure there is toilet paper on every roll.
12. Dress up the dogs and tell them to be on their best behavior.
13. Bring things and take other things away.
14. Never again fail to be there for her, in the flesh, face to face, when she needs me.

I hate that I can't be there with her while she is dealing with so much stuff on her own. I must say though, for someone who is so shy, she has been taking care of business like a champ. It's impressive how much she has gotten done and how quickly she is wrapping up such a huge, intimidating project. I can't wait to get her back in my arms.

Mentor here we come

I haven't written in a couple of months, not because I haven't had anything to write about, but because there was so much going on that I couldn't figure out how to start. Satu and I are moving to Mentor, Ohio. I got a job there and because I am the luckiest woman in the world, Satu encouraged me to take it and has turned her life upside down to come with me and start a new life. A very, very cold new life in which we will weather the storms with warm hearts and a lot of laughter. It is a scary time for us both. Every day has been full of mistakes, unintended consequences and poorly laid plans, but also full of laughter and teamwork.

Here is a list of why I know we will make it.

1. After a long day of moving boxes and making stressful phone calls Satu offered to make us a relaxing dinner and watch a movie with me. All I had to do was go fill the growler and come home to watch netflix on a pile of blankets on the floor. Sounds fun! I went for the beer and on the way back I hit the brakes too hard and dumped the whole growler in her car. When I got home, she just turned off the stove and came out with a sponge and soap. We still watched a movie and she still kissed me goodnight.

2. Day two of packing was really just the end of day one with a nap in the middle. Satu went to get her back adjusted and while she was out, I broke a lamp that she has had for years (and years.) She came home in pain and the lost lamp made her mad, but she still made sure I knew that she loved me more than the lamp.

3. When I woke up having a panic attack, Satu got up from our floor bed, put her hand on my knee and asked if she could read to me from the botany book I have been enjoying.

4.She's asleep next to me right now because after all the times she's seen me fail, she knows that I will keep her safe no matter what and she feels better sleeping next to me.

5. After a very hard couple of weeks and almost no sleep we can still laugh ourselves to tears just by dancing like lesbians.

5. We've been together for five years and she still tickles my knees just because she likes to hear me laugh.

6. The best times of my life are ordinary moments shared with her.