Saturday, May 9, 2020

What is our new world going to be like?

It's very clear that we are living in a new time. People will probably talk about this year or these years like they talk about the Vietnam war or the Great Depression. Covid 19 is a thing that seems like it might permanently change everything.

It is uncertain right now if our country's financial structure is going to completely collapse or if healthcare will become an even more divided, system of privilege and poverty.

Will we ever get to smile at strangers again in the grocery store or hug someone who's having a rough day at work? Will we go people watching on a warm day for sport or gather with the neighbors for a friendly drink?

I'm not a traditionalist. I can embrace change, but not isolation. I worry that I can never pat a stranger's dog again in the park or join an Aikido class in person.

Is wrestling going to be a sport in the future? Will I be to scared to go to the hospital if I do get sick? How can I protect Satu from something you can't see? It seems unreasonable to be more worried about Covid than cancer. but you can't give cancer to your mom. Cancer doesn't close down your favorite places and put you out of work.

I wonder when the sun will come out? Will it be in time for us to meet Nick and Cat's new babies? Will more people at work get laid off? Will we be able to keep the house if our economy collapses?

This is a bit of a nervous post, but I am grateful that I have Satu to share this quiet, scary new world with. Stay healthy. Stay in love and keep laughing my sweet girl. You are the sunshine I need every day.

re-cycle

Satu can do a deadpan. She's clever and funny with a turn of phrase, but what tickles me most is when she plays it seriously, but does something completely whimsical.

After she spent most of the evening squirting me with the water gun we have to keep he cat in line, we revisited how I have absolutely zero hand eye coordination in my natural habitat.

That's weird for a person who is as physical as I am. I can put on my game face and perform all kinds of athletics, but in normal life I miss the trash can even when I am standing over it.

Satu thinks this is the funniest thing in the world. She can detach and ignore her body like no one I've ever known, but she is also incredibly graceful and powerful in her body. She can pick me up with expert balance, knows exactly how long her arms are and seems to understand exactly how I experience her touch.

We spent about 15 minutes on the instant slow-motion replay of me dropping a wad of paper next to the trash can and laughing . She's a wonderful clown and she can excavate comedy from every situation. She's a student of the art of goofy play time. It's part of the reason that she is super popular with all animals and children.

I love having a life that always has the potential for play at any moment. It's like getting to have a sleep over with your best friend at their house every night.