The last two weeks have been a blur of hopeful possibility and incredible stress. Satu has a show at a small community theater in Westlake that opened last night. It's a small lobby, but gets a lot of traffic, and some of the right kind of traffic too. She has spent the last two weeks full of ideas and running to the studio to work on some new pieces to round out the show. It's been great! I see her real self peeking back out and looking hopefully at the future for the first time in a while.
I was worried she would give up art when our own studio idea went beyond what we could do to get it off the ground. Now she's back to herself putting amazing images together and presenting herself like the talented artist that she is.
We've been talking to the studio owner at the place that she's been working at about being more involved. That conversation wouldn't have even happened if we hadn't been there working on the show. Now we might actually change our lives. What I'm worried about is losing that momentum now. It is clear to me that Satu needs to be in her studio working in order to be the version of herself that she's most proud of, but what if the investment doesn't work out? How do we stay the course and keep her working?
I am willing to spend the rest of my life scavenging bronze ingots and glass from wherever I can get them if it means that she is doing what she does best. I'd like for us to be a part of the community there, but more than that I want to keep seeing my wife talk about ideas that really matter to her. I want to see more text messages with business cards on them and pictures of ideas for new art. I want to talk about how toxic her bone art could be and how the fact that it is scary to me is part of the point.
I am so excited about where the next few months will lead us now that my beautiful wife is energized to make more work. I don't care what the business details are really as long as it includes a life that she finds meaningful and makes her as proud as she deserves to be.
